Cadet I've have realized she is not the same person and it's an ugly version, a really ugly person she has become.

I have to figure out how to not give her some much power over me.

These simple task that I need to do like go dark or at least dim due to kids is hard...REAL hard.

I am doing my best but honestly sometimes I can't help but be sucked into the hurt and sorrow I have have within.

I have to be strong willed and minded!