This stuff is hard .. very hard. But it does get better. Congrats on the job, and also on the way you handled the convo with her ... alot of good DB principles were used and that's a big step for you .. no backslides right .. chalk that up to a positive.
Get out of the house and GAL , do something out of your comfort zone .. its in those places I found the most growth. I recall going to a friends backyard party where I knew NO ONE cept her and her husband and they were busy entertaining so I bounced around and just struck up conversations with people ... realized how sheltered I allowed myself to be. By the end of the day, was not like I had 50 new friends ... but I did leave knowing I was ok, not some hermit who was going to crawl in his cave and die.
