WAH - gone almost 1 year, still so hard.

[stacey9]

Thanks Sunny, I appreciate your response. The difference between the mid-point and his amount is around 20K, of which I would receive half. It's just the feeling of giving in, of letting him dictate how it ends up which is getting to me. I could just let it go his way and be done with it, the house would be in my name, he could file for D and that would be the end of it all. I don't know if there's anything else I can do.

A very unexpected thing happened last week - I saw H and OW together. I have seen them in the past while they lived in my town, but they are now living at the other end of the country so this was very unexpected. What struck me was how ordinary they looked, I had been imagining this magical, loved-up existence they shared, but of course reality is nothing like that. He looked sort of hen-pecked and was walking behind her carrying her bags! She is really nothing special at all, although younger than me, I certainly do not feel jealous of her at all. He looked straight at me and I smiled but he totally blanked me.

I felt detached from him and it felt good. I must be getting there at long last.