Well....divorce done! Ugh!!! Feel awful. It was awful. I cried twice but only because my atty had played a song on her phone while we were waiting. It was "Oceans" by Hillsong United. Just listening to the words to that song always makes me cry. Anyway, atty fought for some stuff and I did too. Of course, no one really wins. I don't feel I got a fair deal. He fought so hard. I still feel beat up and dazed. So Surreal.
My atty said I handled it surprisingly well considering I could've had a complete meltdown but didn't. My ex-H is a piece of work. I was warned and he delivered. He was soooo mean. Mean!!!! Our children aren't gonna like it and I don't either that they will have no choice but to go with their dad on his visitations including spending the night at her house. Ugh!
Coming away from this...the system is really messed up. I don't feel like a winner. I also know that some issues were pushed hard because of my in-laws influence like no more homeschooling. So sad. I did agree to this only because I know that I need a job and don't know what my schedule will be so my hands are tied.
Everything is subject to be modified if needed which would require more atty fees (of course).
Anyway, your thoughts and prayers were definitely felt. How would I have been able to make it through this without them?
By the grace of God ... It's done for now. Still have to deal with this narcissist sociopath for the sake of our children. My boys are the reminders that God is good and the marriage was good at one time (or at least 4 times) ;-)
Thank you my beautiful friends. Praying I'll be able to get a good job that has good health benefits and pays well so that I can provide for me & my children without my ex-H help (which isn't much). I'll be needing to sign up for Obamacare since cobra is too expensive. the courts won't allow it since it would leave him with no money. Now I have to pay for my own insurance out of the measly support and spousal maintenance. That's why I need a job!!
Insurance not cheap since I have to sign up with a plan that covers my treatment and that my doctor accepts. Ugh!!! Praying for continued healing all around.
So I'll keep yall posted. Luv yall! Thank you for being there. This forum has helped so much. Y'all's strength, wisdom, encouragement And prayers have been blessings. Thank you.
