It's 8:40 and I am waiting for H to finish karate class so we can go out. I am bummed and trying to get my PMA back up. He was very emotional when I talked to him on his drive home. When he got here, he started shoveling stairs. I offered to do it and he snapped at me. He hugged me hello and I think I held on for too long. He is feeling (his words) "residual emotion."
To top it off, Saturday he took out his S13 to go shopping for clothes. When he came home, he told me he spent all his money on the clothes. S13 told me tonight that he had also bought a baby blanket for a baby shower and a little girl's jewelry set for a little girl's birthday.
The baby shower is probably someone at work, but the little girl's present is undoubtedly for his OW. He had told me he hadn't spoken to her for 2 weeks.
So, back I come to the board to get it all out before I backslide. Bringing it up and asking will NOT get me closer to my goals, so I CANNOT do that. I want to so badly just to clear it up. I have to wait and trust.
He did tell me tonight that he thinks I have the best legs he's ever seen (thank you, mini skirt and boots) and that he was sorry I am hurting. I told him I am sorry he is hurting.
I think I did a pretty good job because before he went downstairs for class, he was smiling and laughing.
