Ahh, "Thank You" Asitis!

I will go to the Event.

I just wonder why she didn't want me there really or did she say the truth?

Am I making more of it trying to find something hurtful just to feel the pain and hurt or to just feel something?

Am I just wanting the pain to make some sense of this hurt or need it as some kind justification of what is happening?

What is happening? Is it the Darkness right before Dawn?