Renew, yes, my bday is tomorrow. A huge 180 for me, by the way, I used to hide my bday so I didn't get any attention. Now I am telling everyone. H is surprised. He and I are going to see a movie together and then out with friends at night. It's his kid's weekend with him, so we got a babysitter. I feel guilty leaving them when they only see their dad every other week, but it's once a year, right?
YAY ME! PMA UP! Shoulders BACK! Happy face ON! I'm all ready for our Thursday night outing with his karate friends. I'm going home, put on a mini skirt and some boots, and those sexy earrings he loves and AWAY WE GO!!!
Another 180 I did yesterday. H used to look at me a lot with tears in his eyes (you guys are going to start thinking he's an emotional wuss, but he only was with me-he's actually very "manly.") and tell me "God, you're so beautiful." Then he'd shake his head and turn away before I could see him cry. I constantly would tell him "no, I'm not." Not surprising a man who loved me that much and was constantly rejected could stop loving me when I continued to reject his feelings like that.
So, yesterday as he held me, he looked in my eyes and tenderly whispered "your eyes are so beautiful in the morning." I said "thank you." He looked shocked. LOL - Let's hope that this leads to more verbal loving. YAY!
He and I are going to see a movie together and then out with friends at night. It's his kid's weekend with him, so we got a babysitter. I feel guilty leaving them when they only see their dad every other week, but it's once a year, right? 
