Hey there NH
I'm sorry you are feeling so much like a ping pong ball - it is tough - I sure know all about not being sure...you have to do what's best for you.

best wishes NH
Peace

Me-45 W-44
S21, S18, D15
T-27, M-21
BD Jan 2014
PA revealed March 2014
In-house separation - April 2015
I filed - Aug 2015
She moved out Oct 2015