It's strange how we can be reminded that we're not so far down the road as we think we are, that we are not as detached as we believe we are. The babbling of D3 about a new house was your reminder, be it accurate or not. In my case, my WW is pressing me and wrote "our M is over anyway", and it punched me in the gut. My reaction made me realize that I was hoping for R more than I care to admit. The recent lull, despite the mediation progress, made me think that perhaps, maybe, if only...
My IC talks some about this idea in my head that I was not good enough for my WW, that OM might be better fitted for her. In fact, he seems perfectly comfortable with the idea and to think that it is a possibility. "Why not?" he seems to say. His point appears to be: it has nothing to do with my worth. It is not a reason to think less of myself. It might be that we've grown different, WW and I; or that she was never a good fit for me; or that she needs something that I can't provide. Why would I be perfect for everyone? Why hold myself to this standard? Why measure my worth by her choices?
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
