Zelda - Baby One More Time

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Sounds like you are doing great moving forward despite your low emotions. You sound like you are a bit more interested in your life than the last page. I'd agree that there is nothing wrong w/ a little medication. It doesn't turn off the feelings, just makes them more bearable to explore and process while still getting on w/ life. It takes a few weeks for anti-depressants to work, and often there is a trial-and-error process finding the right drug, so you'll have to bear the depression for a while longer even with medication.

And, while I'm not in a proper setting to evaluate you, what you stated are classic signs of depression, very treatable, and medication will most likely make it easier to work through the underlying issues than make it harder. Just saying.

Enjoy the trip and all your activities. It sounds like you are certainly doing what it takes to make lemonaid out of the lemons you were handed.