WW was pressuring me again to finish some research so that the D can press forward. I wrote her I had enough of being pressed and it was not helping. I wrote it was not pleasant and she replied: "Exactly. My pint of view is that our M is over, let's get the paperwork done and go forward." This was not easy to read. I had used the expression "your D" and she responded that it was also my D, regardless of what I say. That's when I snapped and wrote:
"No it's not also "my" D. You chose the S unilaterally, without a warning, without consulting me, without wanting to make any effort to avoid it, and without a credible explanation. I take my share of the blame for our relationship difficulties and there are many things I'd do differently, but I don't take the responsibility of the S and D."
She replied "As you wish, as I told you: I don't care".
We're often told here that it's useless to say those things to our WAS and for me it has always been a challenge to keep quiet, but I did it. The pressure made me snap and I felt I just had to say a few things and it would be off my mind. Well, it was not helpful to me. I'm having an awful week, crying much more than usual, even losing some sleep. I should probably have kept quiet. Maybe in a few weeks, I'll be less hurt and will be satisfied that I slipped it in there.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
