WAH, in the thick of divorce

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Zephyr

I totally agree with you that this is a 180 for me. I know that I did not thank him enough or give enough words of affirmation. I am not good at that with anyone and do want to change that about myself. Thanks for reminding me to put that on my goals list.

He NEVER took out the garbage even when I would remind him about garbage day. We consistently missed garbage day, so having someone take that responsibility without asking felt nice.

This is just me thinking this through, but I guess I never thought about thanking/praising him for doing things that were just expected of you. I never got a thank you for cleaning the house, doing the grocery shopping, taking care of the pets, etc. I see how that can lead to resentment. Why not thank him? What’s the harm? I know now what the harm is in not being grateful. LOL

I have been doing a lot of thinking on what I want moving forward from my partner. I want someone to take care of me but not just monetarily. I want someone who can keep me grounded; who has integrity when dealing with relationships. No game playing or lies. A leader of my family, a provider to the lives entrusted to him by God. I want him to recognize himself in me and have a connection, be drawn to each other spiritually. I want this all but deep down I still want it to be my H. I want him to be this man, the man I thought he was.