So pleased to hear your girls are doing well. Its so sad that their d can't be more part of their lives but it's his choice and one day he will regret the loss.
I am not sure how you get angry - I suppose it just happens as part of the process we go through. I get angry at the position my h's selfish actions has put me into - renting a cheap basic flat and working a really demanding job living paycheck to paycheck. Losing my marriage, home, friend and money all because he wanted to feel single and free - well that turned out not to be so much fun after all !!
The sadness; it is all part of the process and letting go of it is one of the hardest things to do. Everyone is different and works through it at their own pace. I still have down days, I still feel sad at all that has happened and I still have tears occasionally, but I have more good days than sad ones now so I try and keep faith that one day the sad days will fade away.
You are doing amazingly well Gwen, you have been thrown into the deep end off a very high diving board - give yourself credit for all that you have achieved. It is easy to get lost in the gloom, so try and see all the little things that are good in your life - the independant things that you now do that you didn't do before.
Originally Posted By: 123Gwen
The MLC is real but with OW and geography I can't imagine H ever building a bridge towards me. I am not sure he is capable of connecting to anyone.
I asked the same question a while ago on my thread - I could not see how it was possible for any bridges to be built whilst h was a) not talking to me and b) living on a different island. It can and does happen Gwen, if your h really wants to mend things then he will do whatever it takes to do it. He will find an excuse to contact you, he will find a way of getting you back into his life. You have no idea what is happening in his head right now. You have no idea what is happening in his relationship either, we presume however we don't actually know. It could be all sunshine and roses but it could also be that his life has turned to custard -
I suppose it's trying to make yourself carry on, be open to all possibilities, whether that be your h, being on your own or meeting someone else - just keep going forwards and living your life as best you can, enjoy it as much as you can as all these days are ones you won't get back.
Stay strong my friend and I hope you find your happiness as you truly deserve to feel happy again.
