Have i been making mistakes too long part 5

[tkdmme]

So,

Last night was business as usual. No fights or R talks. It is very hard but getting easier every day. I am still wondering what is going on in her mind but I realize its none of my concern. Things are getting better as far as my emotions. I still get emotional at times when I try to think too far ahead. I am trying to focus on the now and not think about the future. This is really strange for me.

In the past I have always built scenarios in my mind and tried to manipulate the future. This, I have found is completely useless and counterproductive. I am trying to come to a point to where I can let go of things I cant control. Again, trying to reprogram your mind after living a certain way for 39 years is a big challenge.

My occupation requires me to look into the future and try to prevent any problems that may occur. This works in the business I am in but never works in relationships. I have to learn to separate the way I operate at work from my role as H and father.

What would I do without this site. This has been very therapeutic. just to be able to put my thoughts and feelings out there and have you guys to give me feedback is amazing. this site should win some sort of award for what is has done for so many of us broken people.