Reality is my middle name

[123Gwen]

I haven't posted in a few weeks. Going to physical therapy, back at work and trying to juggle my life as a single parent. The girls are back in school. I miss my oldest but she calls often and will be back in a couple of weeks to visit. Youngest is off to a good start too. Such wonderful blessings.

H attempted to talk with D's but then didn't answer the phone. They say they are done with him. I stay silent but I understand.

Folks I am so tired but I can't believe how unbelievably sad I remain. Why can.'t I get angry? It is a sadness that weighs me down .- the tragedy of it holds me back. H is not coming back and I doubt he ever will do the real work on himself. I still pray daily but I am practical too. The MLC is real but with OW and geography I can't imagine H ever building a bridge towards me. I am not sure he is capable of connecting to anyone.