I have been thinking a lot today about ways to improve myself as I move forward here while letting my wife hopefully find her way (I hope that is what she is doing!).
Physically, I would like to gain back the 20 lbs I lost in the past 6 years while also achieving personal records with my running (5k's and half marathon's) and playing more hockey. This really is a boost to my confidence.
Career, focus on trying to find a better, more rewarding job and finish my MBA.
Socially, I want to become a bit more outgoing and work on my conversation skills. I have already been working on this and I think it is coming along.
Mentally, I need to stay positive. When people ask me how I am doing... I respond with "I couldn't be better, life is good". Corny, but it actually makes me feel good. I also have always had a problem where I focus on the future, instead of the present. I need to stop this. "Yesterday's gone, tomorrow's not here, what are you doing right now?"
I do have one issue I am not sure how to address and it is so embarrassing. Sexually I am just not good. No confidence before and definitely no confidence now. It is a combo of a few bad experiences and just a general lack of experience (though there should be no lack of experience! ugh). I don't know how to work on it though. It is mental, there are no physical issues. I will not be with anyone besides my wife until our marriage is over. I read but that only goes so far. Any advice??
