have i been making mistakes too long part 4

[tkdmme]

I am starting to have more and more days where I'm thinking that I don't want to be in a m with someone who has and is continuing to inflict this much damage.

I am starting to realize that D may be in my future. Of course I don't want the D but I'm having these feeling. She is becoming less attractive to me and I'm starting to remember her part in the demise of the m.

The worst part is sharing the same house with her. I dread coming home. Not that we are fighting. We haven't had a fight in a while. I just hate coming home to a w who has fired me. I want to show her love but cant. I want to give her a hug but I cant. I want to tell the kids that everything will be fine but I cant.

I keep second guessing everything I'm doing and asking myself why I'm doing it. Why I'm I fighting for a m that she doesn't want? Why do I want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me?

This is very hard and has alot of facets. Her family says I can't give up hope. My family is sending me contact info for lawyers.

Good lord. What a mess.