Cali...I want to comment on something you have mentioned a few times, about not trading in this experience, as it makes you see and appreciate things differently. Something like that...
Anyway, on my marathon walk this weekend, I was looking at the sky, the clouds, the cute homes I was walking by, saying good morning to people on their own walk and jogs, and just truly seeing all the beauty around me. I was never that way and I know it is a result of my own experience.
Pretty amazing how this changes us. And to think, if we can carry this into our R, like the new M you are creating with W, it could be pretty amazing and eye opening, the little things around us, how beautiful they are
M you hit on something that has been with me for the past few months. The CHANGE .... funny how 2 years ago I harldy can recognize the man I was ... and it all started with an effort to just get up and make my bed. I head someone just yesterday talk about this ... making your bed every morning, setting the tone on your day, as small and petty as it it .. just making the bed gives you a feeling of acomplishment, amazing how that small thing, that singular decision was the first in many steps to my transformation ... and with all journeys, its that first step that is crucial.
Anyways .. I wake up around 5 every morning, take the dog out for a walk. He is old, now blind .. but still my puppy ... walking I see other similar people walking thier dogs or their spouses and its strange, something inside of me must have changed because everyone says "Good Morning" ... even if I do not say it first. This never happened to me before .. its like you said .. the trees are greener, the grass smeels fresh, even the people are much nicer ... for the first time that I can recall I love my job, I have an amazing son who makes me laugh, I look forward to church every Sunday .. even desire to become more active during the week there. I have my GALS still going ... notice nothing about W or the M in there? Its because I am comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my life it seems. Regardless of what happens with my M, ... yeah .. this journey while I would never wish it on anyone else .. I also understand I would not have made the really tough changes required of me without all the pain.
That which does not kill us makes us stronger could not be more true in my sitch .... I know deep down I ... yes I will be ok.
