Just some Journaling, Sunday she called me out of nowhere, to just talk, I talked to her for a good 20-30mins, about nothing in general just kids, what I was up to the weekend, etc.
I have my kids this week and had been great, they both started school so it feels like back to normal for me right now, waking up getting them ready, packing their lunch etc.!
I actually enjoy doing that, then dropping them off at school, I wish my W was here to be a part of it but she isn't, her loss!
I have been sleeping MUCH better lately and having less and less thoughts about my W.
I have also been thinking of all the reason I used to be angry at my W about and coming to the conclusion that I do deserve to be treated fairly, with honesty, I deserve to be loved, I deserve to have someone that cares about me, I am coming to terms with me getting a D, although that feeling comes and goes then fear sets in but getting easier it seems.
