Summer of Growth and Acceptance - Part 2

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Painter, thanks for sticking with me! How long was your H's affair before it ended? At any point after you found out and exposed was he totally 100% unremorseful for it or did he show at least some compassion and remorse right away?

I guess I think things have crossed a line with my H where I honestly don't think I could get over this or trust that the he would not turn again. I know my sitch is not special or unique to others on here who went through the same or even worse and they still reconciled. Maybe I have just gone into protection mode. Maybe filing is what I need to detach the rest of the way. I mean, obviously we are still at least 3 months away from a final D, so never say never. This is all going to start getting very real for H and he may freak out, especially if the A starts to fizzle. I don't think he has processed much emotionally over the last 5 months, so I could see panic ensuing if it all starts to crumble at once. I honestly don't know. Just going to take it one day at a time.

I am not too worried about what I said. I don't think it was too over the top. I wish I would have walked away at one point, but I am not perfect. My L made me feel better after telling me it paled in comparison to some other stuff he has heard. I do understand I will still have to communicate, but I will try my hardest to control and think of it as a business deal. Should have portion done and filed by Wednesday.