Recovery from cancer and separation

[shotgun]

I fell apart during treatment. While I have very little memory of it I do know that I was completely unable to do any DB and that it was very distressing. To make matters worse I had a cancer navigator who was making things worse with my wife. She was yelling at me and very critical. When I got home my wife was yelling the same things at me. At some point when my wife wasn't there I fired the navigator. I was at a very bad point physically and emotionally and knew my marriage was disintegrating. I am having a very hard time with the belief that we would have made it were it not for the cancer. Maybe I am wrong about that but it is certainly how it feels.