Hey Ginger....just live, sweetie. Just be open to the possibilities. We aren't guaranteed happiness or a life without pain. We just have to go for it and see where we land with the knowledge that we lived through one of the most painful things we could and came out the other side.
It may be hard with someone, there may be challenges and issues....but there can also be incredible joy. And man, how lucky would he be to be with you.