Got taken to lunch today by the company who just hired me. That was nice. Spent 90 minutes really getting to know the young man who has been my recruiter. Then picked up a couple of hours of side work for a customer I've known for years. Not much planned for the evening, but WW is taking the usual 2 boys (S18 and S8) bowling and back to her place for a few hours. She asked me to feed them first as she is low on money (a pretty common situation the past few weeks).
I'll probably just stay home with S16 and S10 and get some housework done. Only a week left before I'm back at a full time job so need to get some laundry caught up. I've already got evening plans for Tuesday and Thursday this week, plus lunch plans Thursday and Friday. Doing pretty well at GAL overall, and while I'm busy it's been getting a lot easier to not think about WW.
I'm starting to think about casually dating, but not decided yet. I don't want anything serious and no plans to be unfaithful, but I think it would be a nice distraction. And I honestly think it would help me detach even further from my W. I want to know that there are other women out there who find me attractive and interesting. And if I start to develop any feelings, then it would be a motivator for me to go ahead and file for D. It's not what I want, but the more time that passes, the more I become discouraged looking at the path back to a healthy M. I mean, she's been cheating for almost 5 years! And with at least 4 OM. How do I get past that? And is she even capable of the work it would require to fix herself? I'm taking it day by day but starting to imagine myself more often with someone new; someone with no sorted history of betrayal.
Me 47 W 42 T 24 yrs M 18 yrs W living with OM BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1) BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out) WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015. Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.