Finally asking for help:

[Solo15]

Thanks for reaching out mutatio. It's been a really hard few days. The realization of my STBX's mental problems has me really worried about my next step. I'm getting a lawyer tonight to help me protect my kids. I went up to the house yesterday while she was away and got my things. That was incredibly hard. I raised all three of my kids there. I loved my little family. My STBX is happily running off to pursue a life of debauchery while I pay for it all, and she insanely thinks that I shouldn't feel upset for what she did. Amazing.

I've got to look out for my kids. I have a hard battle ahead. It's so strange to see all these radical changes in her personality. I do not love her anymore. She has wounded me and my kids far too much. Heartsick, but the anger is flowing now, and it's making me able to see clearly and take careful action.

I know that what I do in the next few weeks will impact the rest of my life, so I have to think with my head and not my heart. I have to a cold calculating terminator to protect my little ones and secure a future for them that is safe.