The story so far... -STBX involved in A since late December/early January 2015 -I begin versions of LRT in mid-February -STBX moves in with her parents first week of April -I expose A to OM's W in mid-April -STBX threatens to file for D immediately following exposure of A -Holding pattern for now -Pulling farther back from STBX -Established boundary regarding daily contact with children -STBX served me D papers on 06/19/15 -STBX putting in offers on new home
The name for this thread comes from a Carl Sandburg poem that I have found to be particularly inspiring as of late.
LOSERS ------- If I should pass the tomb of Jonah I would stop there and sit for a while; Because I was swallowed one time deep in the dark And came out alive after all.
If I pass the burial spot of Nero I shall say to the wind! "Well, well!"- I who have fiddled in a world on fire, I who have done so many stunts not worth doing.
I am looking for the grave of Sinbad too. I want to shake his ghost-hand and say, "Neither of us died very early, did we?"
And the last sleeping-place of Nebuchadnezzar- When I arrive there I shall tell the wind: "You ate grass; I have eaten crow- Who is better off now or next year?"
Jack Cade, John Brown, Jesse James, There too I could sit down and stop for awhile. I think I could tell their headstones: "God, let me remember all good losers."
I could ask people to throw ashes on their heads In the name of that sergeant at Belleau Woods, Walking into drumfires, calling his men, "Come on, you . . . Do you want to live forever?"
Sorry that I haven't been around for a while. Like others have mentioned, being active here can sometimes be a drag, so I've detached a bit from this site.
As far as my sitch is concerned, I have remained dedicated to my present course. I am doing very well and I am truly enjoying life and time with my children. Interactions with STBX are standard, primarily limited to discussions about the children. However, STBX continues to show that she is conflicted by telling me that she misses me and is sad that it turned out this way, etc.
This morning, STBX called a few times and we talked for about 30 minutes. The conversation was reminiscent of others where she laments the quick downfall of our MR. She mentions looking back at pictures, remembering how happy we seemed, and wonders if it was all real. I ask that if all of this was what she really wanted. I just listen. Eventually, I tell her that I am starting a new chapter in my life and say that we are nearing the point of no return in our relationship. She agrees.
So, that's it...
How's everybody doing?
Me:35 W:30 D:4 S:1 Bomb: 01/08/15, discovered EA & PA In House Separation: 01/14/15 W moves out: 04/05/15 I tell OM's W about A: 04/15/15 W serves D papers: 06/19/15 Mediation: 09/16/15 D final: 12/01/15
