It's time to change.

[joss]

I am starting to think of goals that I need to set myself. I have had a lot of time for reflection in the past few months and I have come to some stark conclusions:

I haven't grown as a person since we married - I have been bringing up our 3 children (which has been a lot of hard work) TO THE EXCLUSION OF EVERYTHING ELSE. I have completely forgotten about myself (and my marriage) I used to do a lot of things: study Japanese, go to classes, see friends, see films/documentaries, read books, travel...

All of this enabled me to keep my brain ticking and continue developing, but most importantly keep a foot in the real world. It is all so clear to me now.

I am currently self employed but my work is only for a few hours a week and would like to increase the hours, but I am feeling a great need to get a part time job to get me back out in the real world and work with people again. In self- employment you lose contact with people on a daily basis, so this has greatly affected my confidence/ability to speak to others etc...

On top of all of this I feel my memory is in fast decline. I think I am perimenopausal (I am 47). I have noticed my recall for words has declined sharply over the past year.

Goals:
join a club (book club?)
do crosswords to improve vocab and recall
read one book per month (non fiction)
see at least 1 film per month
see friends at least twice a month
get a PT job
join a business networking club

That's a lot to think about. Very daunting.