hold on!! - 12

[u-turn]

Peter - thank you for checking in on me.
I hear this from you and from others and I try to believe it, but I still question it, second guess it, fear it.

Did I do everything that I can do?

Did I follow my great team of coaches well enough?

most of the time I can say yes to these questions - but then there is some doubt that creeps in. I usually have to remind myself of something horrible that she did to me to move that doubt back to confidence and resolve.

I, of course, have no idea what this will do to her but, but I know don't want to wait around to find out. I have no idea what she is thinking at this point (not that I ever developed my mind reading skills too well). So I will do this in the way that I think is honorable at least.

Thanks Peter