Letting go, really hurts (Smothy 9)

[Smothy]

Very proud of myself, FT DS and did not ask about H.

Usually, I ask him where his dad is what is he doing etc. small steps.

Can't sleep tonight as I am conflicted about the advice given here and what my DB coach has said. however, I have read the advice on Huddy's thread and know that I must follow that advice too. This is what I wrote there;

Huddy, all the advice about letting go and not hanging onto every word replies to me too. Prior to reading this I was uncertain about releasing more funds for my solicitors (lawyers) to proceed to court for the financial order.

I now see this is what I must do rather than waiting to see what his next move is before mine. The post is right about our actions shouldn't be dictated by what we think our WAS will/ not do.

This is hard, my resolve crumbles so easily from any indication that I may 'see' as H changing his mind.