got here late

[duke]

I used to have bad dreams every now and then where something scared me. I would always shuffle across the bed and snuggle with my wife or hold her hand. She absolutely loved it whenever that happened and would console me until we both fell asleep again. She would do the same thing as well. Now I have those dreams more often. I shuffle across the bed, wake up and realize there is no one there. Its really sad and depressing. It is happening less now however. I'm also having dreams where her and I are in the same bed. I wake up alone, those hurt even more. Usually in the early morning as well. Hang in there. Get some exercise. I went for a good long road ride yesterday and felt a lot better when I went to bed. I went to church this AM as well. The sermon was about the sanctity of marriage and how in the bible the man and woman were supposed to cherish one another as one, how important their vows were. I looked around at how many mothers were there with their kids but no dad and there was me by myself.