On to Part V.

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Well she served me papers. Im going to sign them and get them notarized tomorrow or in the near future. My hearts breaking =(

Whats strange about this is what we talked about and what she said...bullet points below

- The person I am now is better than the person I was when I was with you. You made me feel like I couldn't do anything
- Yes T, OM is asking me why I havent filed for D yet, why we still talk, why i am dragging this out. Yes T, he and I argue about this.
- I know T, that their is a 60day period that the court holds onto the papers so I can always pull them if I don't want to do this
- I don't know when I am planning on signing the papers, maybe next week. I don't know when I plan to file them. I just want you to sign them so I can if i choose to do that
- T, to an extent, you signing the papers appeases OM.
- No T, OM will never do the things that you have done for me.
- T, OM will never understand how to budget $
- I know that I quit this marriage too early. I know that you will never give up on us. Yes that is a good quality to have in a H. I know OM wont do all the nice things you have done for me
- OM and I have our problems already. But he hasn't hurt me.

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^^^ To me...sounds like she's on the fence about the D, but she is getting "encouragement" from OM to push her and get it done. I think I will get a D. But it doesnt sound like her relationship with OM is going to last...but I could be wrong. Why she tells me that she doesnt know when she plans to file or that she can pull the papers...is beyond me.

I am going to do my best to keep moving on without her. I miss her everyday but I cant force her to be in this M. I hope they fight all the time. Im pretty sad right now though. She's coming to say goodbye tomorrow morning.