[BrightFuture]

Hey Sotto, thanks for stopping by. Yes, the condo and all that surrounds it (mortgage, friends, etc.) is the biggest link, besides the business that we still own together. This vacation place has been a very convenient emotional outlet for me, where I was able to relax, spend some time with my friends, etc. I went there because I needed to disrupt my every day routine here, get a bit unstuck. I love that place, I love going to the sea with my dog, I love collecting clams… I felt pretty good over there in terms of being able to do my own things without crossing path with some of the H’s friends, except our mutual friends of course.

I think part of this was also feeling this connection to H. And also, the familiarity and convenience. I was not very willing to go to this place myself before BD. I overcame the fear of traveling alone, which I’m very proud of. But, it is mostly about this place. I’m still very hesitant to go somewhere new without a companion. So, the thought that I will not be able to go to the vacation home and stay at the condo is very upsetting.

By “re-evaluate” the condo situation I mean a couple of things. First, if I don’t feel comfortable there anymore (this crazy woman in my face, H wanting to redecorate and make it look like His place, bringing an ow over there), then maybe I need to stop going there. This would mean not seeing my friends who live there and the once who come for the vacations. Second, if I decide to not use the condo anymore, I will probably need to file for D or separation. This would be the only way to divide the assets. This could mean losing the condo all together. I doubt that H will be able to refi it on his name. Plus there are lots of complications when it comes to paper work, since the property is in a foreign country.

Maybe I’m overcomplicating the whole thing. Sorry for being boring again. I’ve been trying really hard to express my feelings and thoughts. Not sure if I succeeded.

Have a great weekend everybody.