Been having a bit of a hard time again today. I think that seeing and talking with WW for a few minutes set me back. It was the most time we had spent together in 3 or 4 weeks. The convo went well, with some discussion about kids and custody arrangements, with an agreement to meet soon to switch up the schedule. She did make one comment regarding S15 and S10 and how they never come over and she would like to see them, but didn't feel comfortable coming here because I was always so "cold" to her. Now, I don't feel I am cold, but probably do act distant and uninterested. I suggested that she was free to set up a time to come visit whenever she wanted and I would be happy to leave the house for 2-3 hours. I thought she would be happy, but instead she sort of frowned, like it wasn't the answer she wanted. I'm mind reading, but I feel like she still wants us to be best friends, and was hoping I would maybe suggest we all hang out as a family. She seemed very happy with that arrangement back when we were trying to make it work, and before I woke up to the cake eating.

Anyway, haven't heard from WW today at all, but she will be picking up S15 today to take him out for a bday dinner, so he's now S16! I've been kind of feeling sad and lonely, but keeping busy, which helps. I was with some friends last night, who used to also be friends with WW, and we took a group photo, which they posted on FB, along with a comment about having a good time. I'm sure WW saw it and probably got upset, since she can't stand them anymore, but I don't care. Part of me was happy knowing she was likely to get upset. I don't feel any need to monitor my relationships based on who she does or doesn't approve.


Me 47 W 42
T 24 yrs M 18 yrs
W living with OM
BD1: 3/7/2015 (A with OM#1)
BD2: 4/11/2015 (A with OM#2, W moves out)
WW filed for D, papers received 9/18/2015.
Meeting to determine child custody 9/29/2015.