Dreams are the worst sometimes.
But I believe they show us what our subconscious knows better. Too bad they are so emotionally hard hitting.

Lol grateful, I'm not wise. Far from it. I've spent too much time in my head instead of my gut and my heart. The times I should have been in my head, I was in my heart!

If your sitch is truly like mine in the big ways - the toxic behaviors/abuse/caretaker/savior stuff, I promise, the gold turns to green tarnish when the sympathetic reactions in you cease, when the chemicals in your brain get through the withdrawal phase and you can finally start making peace with the difference between reality and the love and hopes, in us, that coated it for a while.

I do know all of us here get stronger as we keep the focus on our growth, and let go of the outcome! What are you doing to GAL right now or make yourself happy?

Every sitch is different. I'm thinking of you hoping your big talk goes well and you are well supported the next day!


Mid 30's
Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH
D 9/15; NC forever on

You can't DR your way out of abuse.