On to Part V.

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So last post i was debating on how honest to be with WW and how to treat my visit with her. And I agree with all of you that I should not lay it all out there, because there is nothing that hasn't already been said. Well, I saw her tonight and we swapped dogs, Im going to see her again tomorrow.

As usual we stood there hugging for a long time when we first saw each other. After a little bit she brought up the conversation of what we want to do about us. She told me she has the papers with her and if I would look them over. I told her I don't want this divorce but if she wants to file then I wont stand in her way.

She told me she doesnt know what she plans to do or if she will actually file, and she wonders why it is so hard for us to see each other and why we cry even though we barely talk to each other anymore and are living 2 separate lives.

I just told her I don't think this marriage is supposed to end this way and that I know I gave everything I had to it and only she would know if she did the same.

She left shortly after and said she wants to talk more about it tomorrow when we see each other again.

Honestly I don't know what else to say. I feel like she isn't sure she really wants this but is on a path that she simply cant stop. If she wants me to sign them, then Ill sign them because what good is it to refuse? It will be up to her if she actually files them and what happens after.

Not feeling too great right now. Wondering if i should have came here, wondering if seeing her just opened up old wounds...wondering if i should stay the course and keep trying and DBing or just throw in the towel. I wasn't even planning on bringing up the relationship talk, but obviously she wanted to. I don't know what I will even say to her tomorrow if she wants to talk more.