Good job on the 180 E 2.0! He doesn't have to know if you sorta obsessed or not, all he knows that you did something different. And you know too. And you know why. Double win.

As for sleep, I'm not sure if I've posted this for you but it's worked wonders for me and I'm a terrible sleeper. If something wakes me up I used to try to put myself back to sleep by arguing with my W in my head...not that smart.

Try this mantra, just do it as many times as necessary:

I love you, I love you, I love you
Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
Thank you, thank you, thank you

Repeat as needed. I've woken up upset, said, "I'm not saying the stupid mantra. Ok I'll say it twice....I love you, I love you, I...." and then woken up four hours later. Those four hours can be the difference between a productive relatively happy day and one of misery and depression. It's worth giving it a try.

Big hug,

PP

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