Finally asking for help:

[Solo15]

Man that really helped me. Thanks so much for reaching out. I am so sorry you went through all this. I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone. I hear you about the txt, but in this one moment i was honest and needed a way of strongly defining my boundaries. I was also completely shattered and i'm giving myself a pass on that one. My plan going forward is just full plan b no contact. I actually think email is best. Trying to detach after all these years of being her sole support and best friend. I have never given so much or loved so selflessly and it is tough to repattern my brain, my heart to not be that. I feel like I gave the best things i have to her and i loved her so much. Killing off that instinct is like cutting off an arm, but i know i have to do it.