Thanks EMMess, yes damned if you do damned if you don't, who understands WAS....
Having that talk yesterday took a toll me on last night and most of today.
I've been feeling sad all day, I cant shake it off, almost like the hope I had of getting back together is completely gone and this time I feel it gone, like the only thing I can do now is NOTHING.
Drifting away alone, but I know GOD has a plan for me that far exceeds this, so yes I will pick myself up and dust it off.