I feel sick just reading your sitch right now. I remember when I was there. I know how it feels to just be helpless. There is just something in us that will not let it go. We hold on the smallest of things to keep hope alive. You desperately want things to get better but you can't make it happen.
Heck, I'm in the middle of a D and still feel that way. I am sure you are starting to learn that you have no control her actions. All you can do is work on yourself. Do not have expectations for her response.
As soon as you have expectations you will know that you are trying to control the sitch. That can be your measuring stick so to speak. When you try to control things it pushes her further away and makes you miserable.--at least that is my understanding.
Me: 30's W: 30's M: 12yrs EA: Started 3/2015 MC Started: 4/2015 She moved out and served 6/2015 PA: Confirmed 10/5/2015 2 young kids
"If you do not stand for something you will fall for anything."
