I don't think there is OM in my sit but I cant get that thought out of my head. I know most of you have dealt with this and it is a reality in your sit. That has to be the most sickening feeling ever. I am trying to prepare for this in case there is OM but I don't want to even think about it. I don't think I could deal with that.
I need some good news in my life right now. This year has been absolutely terrible. I cant catch a break. It seems that maybe God is trying to break me. There are some days where I feel like im going to end up in the nut house. Or I will become that crazy old man in the neighbor hood who never leaves the house. I just need something good in my life and I need it quick.
My job is extremely stressful. Just today alone I have been fighting with the client's rep over some meaningless junk and it takes up the better part of my day. I am the quality control. nobody likes to see me coming. Even when they are friendly to my face, I know as soon as I turn my back they are talking trash about me. Then after a 10 hour day of this BS, I get to go home to an ice cold house. Where in know for a fact I am not wanted.
This is so hard to deal with. knowing that you are not wanted in the house that you provided is unbearable. I have spent my whole adult life building this and in one day it is all destroyed by the person who said she would be my partner forever. I am trying not to be resentful and bitter but im just disgusted at what she is doing to our family.
Sorry for spewing.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
