WAH, in the thick of divorce

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Julie - your H can not want to give you full child support but that isn't up to him. I think you should consult with a L and know your rights. You don't have to file or anything but please know he has to take care of his children.
Thank you for saying that I seem like a wonderful mother. I am the best mother I know to be for my son and I am sure you are just as wonderful to your twins. Did you know that I am an identical twin? I cannot express to you how incredible the bond is between them. I am 33 and do not go more than a few hours without talking to my sis and do not go more than a day without seeing her.
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I am struggling this week and I think it is from the stress of Tuesday's meeting. I am not coping well with missing my son when he isn't home. The hurt is deep for me because we tried to conceive for 3 years before doing IVF and receiving our miracle. I keep thinking about everything we both went through to become parents and he can break that family up so easily. I did not overcome infertility to only see my son part of the time and miss out on so many experiences he will have, that should have been had with both his parents beside him. I know this is something I am going to have to work on but it adds an extra layer of grief. This has been on my mind a lot this week and needed to write it down.

I FaceTimed with S4 last night and as soon as it connected and he saw my face he says "I wuv you Mommy. I just wuv you". Makes me melt.