WAH, in the thick of divorce

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PP - thank you! I am very proud of the way I handled the meeting and it really is all about S for me. Clearly not for H. He looked like an a**

Sunny - I hope the process goes much smoother for you. good luck! thank you for helping me get through yesterday.

V - Thank you!

So what's next? I don't know. He is REALLY pissed that he is not getting his way. Major temper tantrum being thrown. I hope and pray his L will talk some sense into him and guide him in making a decision that is best for his S not for himself. Dr.C is planning on telling his L how stubborn he was being in the meeting and is creating a major setback in the process.

The next meeting date is September 1, it was supposed to be going over financial assignments now I am afraid we will waste more time on the time-sharing issue. It will slow the process down for me but I can't afford for it to keep going on and on and on over the same argument.

I am really at a loss right now in DB'ing. I am going to keep doing it for me but I am really starting to question his character and if I could ever go back to that. Major changes would have to occur. I am starting to see now how his temper and anger in the past really wore me down to where I would do anything to just make that go away. Really did not do myself any favors in that department so I do feel like this is doing a 180 for me.

How do I still be the lighthouse when he is so pissed at me? I just want to cry for this person he has become, he is so cruel.

New goals:
1. Do not let his temper and anger make me do something I am not comfortable with just to make him feel better
2. Do more GAL activities when S is not here (make a list)
3. Stay dark except for child related business that can't wait. No temp checking
4. Have a better PMA when around H