Finally asking for help:

[MrBond]

"Do you think having kids was what kept you in it Mr. Bond?"

That was part of it. In the end it came down to what I believed and wanted to do.

I had tons of friends and family telling me that I shouldn't "wait". I couldn't stand that. I wasn't sitting at home "waiting". I went out and did more than I did when we were together and I never stopped learning.