Hey Roiste, I wished to hear that your trip was going better than this.
Wanted to just say that your spot is not an easy one. it is not going to resolve itself overnight...no matter what direction you go. We support you, no matter what you decide. we will be here for you, as long as you need!!!
I was going to post something very similar to what C has written (although he was much more concise than I would have written ) MWD just this week posted on Facebook something very specific to this topic, it read:
"So many people who divorce don't fully consider ALL the fallout of their decisions. Although it's impossible to have a crystal ball, careful thought about how life will play out after divorce should be mandatory. Too many people just get caught up in the moment and fail to recognize all the new and unintended problems that will occur as a result of divorce." - MWD
I hate that you are hurting. I hate that you have started losing self-respect. I honestly believe that saving your self-respect has nothing to do with your wife. It is about being who you want to be, allowing yourself to be treated respectfully and acting according to what your core values and principals are. If you chose to stay or chose to go, it must because of what you want to do and what you feel is best for you and your children, not because of what your wife wants or doesn't want.