have I been making mistakes too long part3

[tkdmme]

the list is great idea. I think I will do that tonight. And you are right about being too old. Every time I have mentioned that to people they say that im crazy and that if they could do what I do they would never stop.

As far as the list I need to be specific. There are lots of things I want to change. At the top of the list is being a constant worrier. I have worried my whole life and if I didn't have anything to worry about, I would create something. I am getting better with that one.

Also, I tend to care too much about what other people think of me. I let their actions dictate mine. I have spent much of my life trying to keep everyone around me happy at the expense of my mental health.

I have always internalized everything. I grew up with a father who would not allow me to show any emotion. Ive learned to bottle up everything until it explodes. When I say explode I mean I go into withdrawing form every one.

I cant do this anymore. I have lived so long with this anxiety and I am not willing to continue.

I will get my list together tonight.