As far as goals, I just want to be a better person. I want to be a better father, and ultimately I want to put my family back together.
Back burner that last one, just like your W its out of your control right now right?
So, lets look at #1 and #2. What are you going to do to achieve this .... its easy to say "I want to be a better person" but how are you going to go about this?
I have said this a few times ... I created a list ... 3 actually #1 was things I liked about myself, #2 things I did'nt, #3 things I admired in other men. Slowly and one by one I started to remove items from #2 and replace them with #3's ... creating Cali 2.0. Might do you well to create your own list.
The Piano thing is good .. that's who you are, a part of you. I think the LBHs sometimes lose themselves over time, we lose those parts of ourselves who made us who we were, losing that is in a sense losing the attraction that our WW/WAW had for us. Its the confidence these things gave us .... losing that is alot like Austin Powers losing his mojo. Does not matter if you go back to that same well, or discover your mojo in something new ... as long as you find it, it will help rebuild your sense of self worth/confidence/esteem. As far as the 'to old' thing .. I feel ya, I still DJ in the club on Friday nights ... used to be 3 nights a week for about 10 years. I am leaning on retiring (again 3rd time) but it is still fun, I still pack the place and people look at me with teh WTF look when I share I feel I am 'to old for this chit' .... thing is no one cares, as long as you are doing your thing and you are good at it ... its good for you.
