How not to look at him and see the loving, gentle, wonderful H I did for so many years. I still can't see him, and first see the raging, nasty or entirely aloof creature. I wish I could.
Your concious mind wants to do this I think and your subconscious mind is holding the current programming.. The subconcious mind is a whole load of embedded programs so change that and the whole addiction sensation will change.
Even his name, reading it written on paper, conjures good feelings and memories before the bad ones. I still feel so attached in this way.
There is a belief embedded in this I think. Your WH has with your permission and behaviour trained you to feel this. Without disrespect (because my WH did the same) its classic Pavlov response, it's the way they target us by anchoring pleasant feelings in us by using certain triggers in this case WH name. By knowing the triggers then you can pattern interrupt the response.
I would like to reverse all that, and look at him and see his face simply as a mask for what I really know lies beneath.
You can chose to use your conscious mind to swap these images, there a number of techniques, including using projection, and superimposing one image over another.
But my tender little heart strings still see the man I would chase if he gave me the slightest reason.
Know this is your addiction talking.
You are getting there, now you see the mask, what would happen if your WH removed it? Can you let your mind do that? Can you identify your triggers?
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Last edited by Vanilla; 08/19/1509:48 AM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
