PP's New Adventure (5) - Filing & Moving Forward

[PigPen]

Thanks Azz, it was a big weekend. And no it hasn't been easy since she left. My desire to undo a lot of DB'ing and reach out is very strong right now. The desire to go word by word through what she said and analyze is it also there (believe nothing I know).

It's just how my brain works, it wants to solve this problem. I know that it can't and the only thing I can do is keep it focused on improving me. She gave me some kernels of truth that I still need to work on and I am.

I'm telling you though, it was much easier when I thought she was just keeping my dog from me and was living in a spiritual fantasy land. The pain of being with me is still larger than the pain she's going through now so we're going to stay apart. Maybe forever, but who knows.

So far this week I've gotten a lot accomplished at work and am making headway on stuff that is overdue so at least I feel like momentum is back on my side in my non M life.

I'll take that over where I was 4 months ago any day.

PP