When is kindness enough?

[Ripe]

Four days until I fly home.
I am getting nervous.
It has been almost two months since I saw my kids. I have been skypping with them every night.
It has been almost two months since I saw my wife.
I haven’t talked to her for almost a month, as she requested.
I need to start thinking how to behave when I see her again.
One thing I know: I feel very uncomfortable at the thought of having to share the same bed with this person I don’t know anymore.
I feel like quitting.
I DBusted.
I tried.
I almost made it.
But I failed.
Al least, I hope I have started a path of self-improvement.

And now off to bed. I started meditating and I want to see in one month if I see any improvement in quieting my mind.