Sotto Voce

[Sotto]

Thanks for stopping by Deja Vu. And Pink and RD, my stalwart friends, I appreciate you checking in on how I'm doing.

I've been away working last couple of days, and was out last night for dinner with a couple of former colleagues. One of them I hadn't seen for a couple of days and she was staggered at how well I seem to be doing given all circumstances. She said that I look glowing and peaceful - not bad after a busy day at work and a challenging year!

This evening is a bit of a downer. I got back to a couple of emails from the L. One is the financial disclosure. I hadn't realised you get all bank transactions and I've had to stop myself spending hours pouring over those to see what H has been up to. Not good for me to do that. Also, I received the D petition and so I'll need to respond to that.

All in all, the info isn't bad. I had prepared myself for worse. I can see that the D grounds - of which there are three - are probably as watered down as they could get away with. Also, there were no unpleasant surprises about living with someone else, or planning to. I can see that H is probably trying to make this as painless as possible. So, I guess it is all as good as I could have hoped for really - just feels a bit rotten to receive it all. I'm not tearful, just have a heaviness in my chest tonight.

But I'm just trying to see that this is some of the brutal reality I need to engage with in order to get to the other side. I'll get there - I can do it if you can Pink!!

Take care all xx