have I been making mistakes too long part3

[dwh15]

I am sleeping better and the bad dreams are less often. In fact I have not been dreaming of her much lately. This is awesome. I am not sure if I posted it earlier but I have very vivid dreams. This has been the case for my entire life. I still remember dreams I had as a child. They seem so real that when I wake up they carry on through my day. I will wake up angry due to an unpleasant dream. Most folks don't understand this but they truly effect my day.

Glad to hear you're sleeping better. The dreams are part of this experience for most of us. And yes, they tend to be very vivid and realistic, regardless of whether you normally experience dreams that way. I've woken up more than once in a cold sweat, coming out of my dreams about WW and OM. Over time, the frequency and intensity will fade, just like with the emotions. Sounds like you are processing some anger, which again, is another very normal part of this.

I know what you mean about detaching to a point where you don't want your W back. I believe that is a very real concern. I start to feel that way sometimes and then feel guilty for thinking it. I would suggest not to focus on that too much right now. When and if your W ever gets to a point you can have those sorts of discussions, then you will have a decision to make. And there isn't a right or wrong one; should you choose to leave the M, then you continue on with your life. She pulled the trigger first. There is no guilt or shame in wanting out after your partner left months or years ago. But don't rush it. You don't know how you will feel tomorrow, let alone a year from now. Keep working on you, detach, and enjoy life again.